Let it be known that you are a warrior.
I know when someone first called me a warrior I thought, “I am not a warrior, and I am no more special than you. I am just a girl trying to survive disease”.
But you know what? That girl is a warrior and you are a warrior too.
What we experience day-to-day is what most people take sick days from work for. We learn to function under extreme and intolerable circumstances, because it is the only way to maintain some quality of life. We fight battles with brave faces that others cannot even begin to imagine, let alone endure with the occasional smile- and that my friend is a true warrior.
So now when people call me a warrior, I say, “Thank you”, because I know with every fiber of me being, I am one, even though I have bad days too. The tough days are like training camps, it may seem like backwards steps in the midst of it, but it really is forward motion. I am continually being challenged to seek strength within or seek it from my teammates to overcome the challenge together. You don’t have to do this alone.
When you are crying and down on your knees begging for a reprieve, remember, you are a warrior and warriors fight for what they believe in. They are not always heroic, but they never give up. Warriors train hard to become strong and resilient in the continual face of adversity and you my friend- are no different.
I understand this can feel like the longest, toughest battle of your life, truth be told, it probably is. I am with you, I am in it too, and some days it takes everything in me just to cope through the day and hope is like trying to find a needle in the haystack. I know it’s there and that it exists, but covered in heavy hay bails and loose straw, (and probably way too many allergies) and it can often feel impossible.
But it’s not.
It exists; it’s there, it’s just a matter of finding it. If you know this, you know you can heal. YOU WILL HEAL. Even at your weakest moments, every moment you choose to find your breath and every moment you choose to see or even look for light in darkness, you are choosing to strengthen your warrior spirit.
I know that with perseverance, ally’s, and willingness to heal, that you will win this battle and when you do, you will be- and are already am becoming, the strongest, most brilliant version of yourself possible.
If you’re reading this, it’s not by chance; it’s for a reason. Good day or bad, just like a warrior; the hardest leg of the battle is the one nearing the end. You’re exhausted. You’re beaten up and wounded. You question if it’s worth going on and consider giving up, but consideration and action are far from each other and despite your wounds, you know your body is your ally. So you rest and trudge on despite your burdens and suffrage. You may not be well or feel well, but you are alive and every breath is life force energy that brings you closer to victorious wellness.
Dear Friend, you were not born to suffer for eternity, you were born to live and to live your fullest potential, you have first had to be made into a strong warrior. You are growing and becoming and it’s painful and nasty some days I know it, but I promise you, it is and will be, entirely worth it. I know this because I myself have grown and learnt lessons through this illness that many would never think twice of in their life. Yet I will admit, the growth is not enough to get me through some of the hell-ridden days and pained nights, but my unshakeable warrior spirit, belief in healing and a greater purpose in life are.
“I am a brave warrior and every experience I have is a catalyst to healing my mind body and spirit.”